Missing your ghost

Every night I find myself dreaming of you,

I dream of you,

and you...

keep me awake!

I wake up multiple times a night

and the night slips me by

as I dream of you...

Of how you are.

and all I know you'll always be

to me...

In the darkest of the night,

When my eyes grow heavy

And sleep surrounds,

You invade. 

You steal and give me peace all together

You’re always within reach,

But I cant touch you,

Your always just a glimpse of all I ever wanted

Yet all I might never fully have

Your always leaving,

Never staying.

Am I so easy to forget?

Am I so easy to ignore as you live?

live life without me near?

Do you not miss me as I miss you?

Maybe I'm just a fool...

in love with the ghost of you

the one who was here

that might return

but will never remain

a mire glimpse of all I wish to give my love and life to

but who ever said you wanted that,

from me...

Who ever said I was enough for you...

I wake with a heaviness in my mind and heart

And a feeling of empty hands that have grown tired of reaching,

for the ghost that doesn't want to truly be a part of this world

my world...

I lay here

eyes wide open

remembering

Your face

your eyes

your lips

and scent

I embrace my pillow for comfort,

but your scent is still on my sheets and I feel my heart race

as I fight back the tears of not having you near

and so...

I force myself to sleep again

because I know that you will be there waiting...

waiting... in my dreams

because it's the only place where you are truly mine...

The only place where you truly embrace me as yours...

I am afraid to be awaken again, 

because I know my empty bed and the quiet stillness of the night

will remind me...

That

You have forgotten me